The irony, of course, is that I didn't think I'd have to write one of these this year. "2010 will be the year I'll finally put up that backtrack I've been desperate to post for the past fifteen years" I told myself last time around. Still, to be fair I had said the exact same thing in 2008, and have it in the back of my mind even now as I write this.
Virtual self-mutilation aside though I do seem to have made it through a bit of mind-shift since last Valentine's: up until last year I did still hold onto the image of being finally able to do partake in rituals like this with a partner post-marriage, but something seems to have changed over the past 12 months. Not in a sad or despairing way, but more in a "I now want different, perhaps more practical, things in life and anything else will be a bonus". I guess between acknowledging my age and realising what I really want at this point in my life (clue: it's not very exciting), I've finally been able to let go of some of the things I had missed out on which I had wanted to experience, and accept that it just may not happen in that particular way.
Cynical enough or just plain depressing? Apologies if it's the latter; I hope the following will make up for it:
Sunday, February 14
The Annual Inevitably Cynical "I Hate Valentine's" Post
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Depressing, but you've also added 'made for each other' to your links today, so I guess you're not as cynical as you come across in your post.
ReplyDeleteIf there's one thing I've learnt it's that life never really goes according to plan... things kind of seem to happen when you're least expecting it. I've been that cynic hating Valentines day every year for as long as I can remember and now that I am in a relationship, it seems too cheesy to have to participate in what is essentially just a commercialised day designed to make single people feel like crap!
ReplyDelete"I now want different, perhaps more practical, things in life and anything else will be a bonus" - I think that knowing what you want but having realistic expectations about the way things should be really makes things easier.
I hope 2010 is the year that you find everything you're looking for :)